Seeing everything come to life this spring makes me hopeful that I will not have to endure cold weather again, at least for a while. It's already less than two and a half months before I am scheduled to depart and I am getting excited. More financial support has come in I am and currently at about 87% of my monthly support target. It truly has been a process of learning to trust God to provide. One thing that has amazed me is how so many have expressed their support, surrounding me with prayer and encouragement as I share about what I believe the Lord is calling me to. It is humbling for me to recognize that all of this is not because of what I have done or am capable of doing in my strength, but rather because of what the Lord is doing as we together step out in faith.

At the end of April, I went down to visit my brother and his wife in southern Mississippi. We had a great time together. I also had the opportunity to share for a brief time at the church they attend about my plans to serve with AIM in South Sudan. It was a good experience. It amazes me when people I've just met for the first time commit to pray for me or offer support.

My days are becoming less structured now as more tasks, events, and gatherings come along the way during these last couple months I spend in the U.S. I am actually enjoying this season of variety.

Prayer requests

-Please continue to pray for me as I work through the necessary details for going out into the mission field. Also, I am still in need of more pledged monthly support within the next few weeks before I have clearance for departure and my plane ticket can be purchased. As I let the need be known, I pray that the Lord would guide those He is calling to be regular financial supporters.

-Pray that the Lord would pave the way for the Gospel to go forth and penetrate the Boya community where I am looking to eventually get established after my return to Torit in South Sudan.

-Please continue to pray for peace during this time of transition in Sudan. South Sudan is to gain independence on July 9th this year and many of the key issues between the North and the South have not yet been resolved.

It All Belongs to Jesus

Though it has been over a year, I still have new memories and thoughts that come to my mind as I reflect upon my previous time in Sudan. Recently I had been thinking about my attitude. In any ministry, frustrations will come through interruptions. Even when I would determine in my mind to have a good attitude, it seems that the Lord would in one way or another allow my patience to be tested in an unexpected situation. There would be times where I would have a quiet evening or an afternoon to myself at the missionaries' house. I would sit down to have lunch or dinner and immediately a visitor would show up. Knowing that the most appropriate response would be to welcome them in, I would allow them in with a smile on the outside, but angry on the inside not wanting to be disturbed. At other times while I would be out at the market, a stranger or someone I hardly knew would greet me saying they would like to talk to me about something. I would try to patiently listen while they would spend the next few minutes talking about their hope to start a business or open an orphanage thinking that maybe I would like to be part of it. On the inside I would be thinking, "this person only wants to selfishly use me for his benefit." Very quickly I would find myself judging the motives and attitudes of others because I was upset that "my time" was being wasted.

Not long after such an interaction would I be reminded of my selfish attitude the Lord was calling me to repent of. Instead of making up my mind to not get upset the next time, I believe the real issue that I am learning to deal with is the need to recognize that my time and plans are not nearly as important as I make them out to be. After all, like everything else my time and plans actually belong to the Lord. He will see that my true needs are met in one way or another as I trust Him.

Appreciating Differences

I remember a time in Torit that I had gone over to visit my Kenyan friend Barnabas in his mud hut that he was renting on the compound of a Sudanese family. Some of those who lived on the compound were heavy drinkers and the environment was not a pleasant one. This was to be one of my last visits to see Barnabas since my time in Sudan was coming to a close. Occasionally we would talk about the difficulties of living in Sudan and I would sometimes mention the differences that frustrated me, but this time I distinctly remember our conversation taking a different direction. We began sharing what we loved about Sudan and its people. I was there as a missionary and Barnabas was there for business and both of us grew to love the people and the place that the Lord had led us to.

One thing that continually impresses me about the Sudanese culture is the way the people care for one another's needs. It is a common practice for Sudanese to welcome a relative, a friend, and sometimes even an acquaintance to stay with them if they are in need of a place to stay. When I asked my language helper Taban if I could stay on his compound with him and his family in Torit, he agreed without hesitation and without demanding anything in return. For the appropriate ways that I did offer help to the family in return for hosting me, they openly expressed appreciation. In Sudan, unexpected visits are almost always welcome. Even when I would stop by a family's compound to ask a quick question, I would be welcomed to sit and eat with the family. In Sudan, like in much of the developing world, relating well to one another is often more important than accomplishing a particular task on a scheduled time. People just enjoy being together.

I find that there are some aspects of Sudanese culture I prefer over American culture. On the other hand there are many things that I prefer to do the American way. Though I sometimes tend to judge cultural difference as one either being superior or inferior to the other, I pray that I would learn to see that most are simply nothing more than what they are: differences.

Barnabas and his wife Immaculate

Taban with his wife, daughter, and mother

Boya

These photos were taken by Phil, AIM's South Sudan unit leader when he made a trip to visit the Boya community in December 2010.

Clement's father. Recently, Clement informed

me that his father has a plot of land reserved for me.

Pastor Francis from Africa Inland Church in Juba. I am

hoping to work alongside him if he agrees to return as a

missionary to the Boya community.

Many people groups in South Sudan use scarring as a

form of decorating their bodies. Some scars have specific

meanings.

Preparing for a Return

Gaining Independence
It was a great surprise to many that the referendum which took place in January 2011 went peacefully and that the official results (98.83% for separation) have been recognized by the government. South Sudan will officially gain independence on July 9th 2011. As a result of these positive reports and the continued peace, AIM South Sudan missionaries have been given the green light to return to their locations of ministry and some of them are already back. I cannot help but thank the Lord for this.
There is much rejoicing in South Sudan. None with whom I had talked expected the process to go as well as it did. Neither did I. I believe the Lord has answered the prayers of the many who were crying out to Him on behalf of South Sudan. Nevertheless, we must not forget to continue praying. I have committed to pray for Sudan regularly, yet I find myself praying for this nation less frequently after seeing that the referendum went well. As I write this I am reminded of how greatly South Sudan still needs to be continually covered in prayer. It will be important to resolve the issues regarding border demarcation, citizenship, and a separate referendum for the Abyei region which lies on the North-South border before independence. Also there have been some clashes between groups in the South resulting in many deaths, mostly being civilians caught in the crossfire. Furthermore, the price of fuel and other items have increased drastically since the time of the referendum making life more difficult for those who have already been struggling to survive. South Sudan still has a long road ahead of it with numerous challenges of which any one of them if not properly dealt with could threaten its stability.

While in the United States
Since candidate week in November, I have begun the process of raising support. Currently, I am at almost 60% of my monthly pledge target. Considering all that I wanted and needed to do in preparation for long-term ministry in South Sudan I made the decision to leave my job in December. Since then I still find that I have plenty to do everyday, but I thank the Lord that I now have more time and energy to do it. I am glad to be part of a Sudanese church here and I appreciate the friendships that have developed through it. I am also regularly spending time with refugees from Darfur, a region in the western part of North Sudan. They have been helping me with the Arabic language and I have been helping them with English. I so greatly desire that these people would see the love of Christ and His truth through my actions and words.

An Assignment
I am usually a bit hesitant to give too many details when it comes to plans for a specific ministry assignment due to the fact that in the mission field, especially in an area like South Sudan, direction of ministry can change in a moment's notice. Nonetheless I still would like to share about where I believe the Lord is leading.

When AIM's South Sudan unit leader, Phil, did an exploratory trip to visit the Boya people group in June 2010 he was well received. This community that Phil visited had no church or missionaries among them, but they continually expressed their desire to him for missionaries to come and teach the Word of God to the people.
With such a response from the community, Phil went to visit the area again in December. This time he went along with two Africa Inland Church pastors from Juba, South Sudan's capital city which is about a 3-4 hour drive west of Torit. The two South Sudanese pastors, Joshua and Francis, along with Phil met with the same Boya community Phil previously visited and again the people welcomed them to come to teach, preach, and share the Word of God. Pastor Joshua made the request that if they, Africa Inland Church Sudan, were to send someone, then the community would need to build accommodations and provide food for the missionary. With this request, the leaders accepted and said they would begin construction soon. Phil also mentioned my name as AIM's likely first missionary and applause erupted from the leaders. He told them that I would need their support of friendship, language learning, protection, place to sleep, etc. and the leaders responded saying they look forward to all these things. Last I have heard is that pastor Francis, a young married man, is seriously considering relocating from Juba to the Boya area as a missionary. If he agrees to go, it is my hope to work alongside him in reaching these people for with the Gospel.
Phil has encouraged me to make my main focus on the youth and children for evangelism and discipleship. He has also encouraged me to look into chronological Bible Story training before coming. Because most Sudanese in the villages are illiterate, they are skilled oral learners. In oral-learning cultures, much knowledge is passed on from generation to generation through the telling of stories. Though many of the Boya may not be able to read the Bible, they definitely have the capacity to learn and understand it.

Though I do expect that the work will be very difficult with many spiritual, emotional, and physical challenges, I must admit that I am incredibly excited about this possible opportunity to be part of bringing the Gospel to these people. I do believe it is God's will that I go to South Sudan so I am praying that this door to join the Boya community would remain open. At the same time I know that my future is not in my hands, but in the Lord's. Therefore I trust in the One who sees the whole picture and directs each one's path for His glory.

Prayer needs:

-Pray for the transition of South Sudan to independence. Pray for the specific North/South issues of citizenship, border demarcation, and the Abyei referendum which needs to be held, but has been delayed due to a disagreement over who will be eligible to vote in it.

-Pray for peace among the people groups and political groups in South Sudan. Pray for economic stability and God-fearing leadership.

-Pray that the Lord would prepare the hearts of the Boya people to receive the Gospel and also that the Lord would raise up Sudanese who will go to the people with His message.

-Pray that the vision for sending out missionaries would continue to grow and become a reality in Sudanese churches.

-Pray that I would not be blind to the opportunities the Lord has set before me here and now as He prepares me for future ministry. I want to be obedient wherever the Lord places me.

Appointed As a Missionary

With the deteriorating state of my father's health and his passing away in July, these past eight months of my life that I have spent in the United States have been difficult. Yet not only has the Lord provided me the strength to endure, but joy along with needed times of rest. After making the decision about six months ago to pursue long term service with AIM, I have now been appointed as a long-term missionary with Africa Inland Mission.

In my previous post, I quoted Proverbs 3:5-6:
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths."

As I am thinking about and preparing for my next steps to return to Africa this verse frequently comes to my mind. I love to imagine what my future on this earth will look like as I plan according to how I believe God is leading. When I am faced with a change of direction or a different course, I have to admit that it is sometimes painful to accept it. But after the initial shock of the unexpected change in plans or current circumstances, the Lord reminds me of His faithfulness to direct me according to His perfect plans. What wonderful news it is to know that our God sees the bigger picture and will guide us according to what is best as we place our faith in Him! With all the uncertainties, this truth has brought me tremendous peace. Over my time in the United States, I see the Lord continuing to shape my vision and circumstances for future ministry. Some aspects of the plans have remained the same while other parts have changed, and most likely there will be more change to come.
Initially, it was my desire to return to South Sudan to work with the unreached Toposa tribe. I imagined returning a month or two after the Sudanese referendum scheduled for January 2011, but as is typical there have been a few changes in plans. When AIM's South Sudan unit leader did an exploratory trip to a neighboring tribe of the Toposa, known as the Boya, he was warmly welcomed by this unreached people group which has no church or missionaries living among them. According to the older generation of the Boya, whom have little knowledge of the Gospel of Jesus, there is a great need for people to come and teach the Word of God. It is typical for people to request assistance in finances, development, or medical care, but it is unusual to ask for workers to teach the Bible. For this reason, if the door remains open to work among the Boya people, I am eager to do so. When I attended Africa Inland Mission's candidate week, I was hoping it would be a possibility to get the green light for pursuing a return to Africa in mid-February or early March. When not faced with that option, but rather January 2011 or July 2011, I was disappointed. As I prayed about what to do, I truly felt that the Lord was calling me to pursue the later date of July for a number of reasons, despite what I wanted. As I made the decision to go with it, peace filled my heart and I began to joyfully anticipate what the Lord would do during my time here in the United States.
I do believe that the Lord has me where I am for a reason. I am involved with a Sudanese church here in Omaha, where I preach about once a month and I truly enjoy being part of their community. Also, I have the opportunity to meet certain friends every week where I can continue practicing my language skills as well as talk about Jesus with them. Furthermore, I am realizing the need to have a wider support base for my return to Africa and I believe the additional time I have will allow me to reconnect with those who have partnered with me or desire to do so. Over this period of time, please continue to pray.

Prayer points:

-Pray for the peace of Sudan. The upcoming referendum allows the Southerners to vote for either unity or independence. Many believe that either outcome of the vote will lead to problems. There are still certain regions that lie on the border between the North and the South which are in dispute.

-Pray for the unreached of South Sudan. There are numerous people groups who do not have the Gospel. Pray not only for workers to reach these peoples, but for open hearts to receive them.

-Pray that the Lord to use me as He wishes during my time here in the United States. I do not want to overlook any opportunities that the Lord has placed before me here.

-Pray for preparations of my return. For those who the Lord is calling to partner with me, may He stir up their hearts to pray and possibly give in finances.

Concluding this Chapter

I am so grateful to the Lord for how He allows His peace to rule in our hearts as we continue to follow the path which He sets before us. As Proverbs 3:5-6 says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will direct your paths," It is a reminder to me that no matter what I face, Christ can be glorified through my reliance on Him.
Nearly two years ago, my father had been diagnosed with chordoma, a slow growing bone cancer. They performed surgery and removed the tumor. About a year later, they found that the cancer had returned. Despite this difficult news, I knew the Lord had called me to Sudan and was at peace about going out into the field so I headed out to Sudan. At the beginning of March this year, I received news that the cancer had spread more extensively than previously thought and that my father's health would likely deteriorate quickly. By the recommendation of the doctor, I decided to return early and arranged a flight to return to Omaha on March 19th. I am now back in Omaha and with my family.
During my last couple months in Sudan, ministry was going well. I was teaching three young men computer skills as well as teaching one individual English grammar and vocabulary. Although I stopped teaching the intermediate English class at AIC since all my students who expressed interest were busy at school preparing for exams, my beginner's English course was going fairly well. The learners, which mostly consisted of adult women who had started with little to no English really seemed to enjoy the class. Also, the weekly Bible study that I was having with Barnabas, Odiya, and Abema was going well. At our final study together, the three of them agreed to continue to meeting after I left. Although I knew my ministry in Sudan would be coming to a close for the moment, I felt the Lord preparing me for future ministry there.
With the more time that I spent in Torit, there was one people group, the Toposa, which captured my attention. Like most states in South Sudan, Eastern Equatoria consists of numerous people groups, each with their own language and culture. The Toposa is possibly the largest people group in Eastern Equatoria State and still remains largely unreached. They are pastoralist nomads, often being on the move throughout the year. I first encountered the Toposa in Torit as the boys would bring their cattle and goats into the area for grazing. In Toposa society, it is the boys who have the responsibility of tending and herding their livestock. Generally, men have the least amount of work to do as their main responsibility is to keep track of their livestock. The women, on the other hand, have the responsibility of caring for the rest of the needs at home. This includes, rearing children, maintaining a clean compound, preparing food, and drawing water from the nearest source and carrying it home. Tension with neighboring tribes is common among the Toposa and cattle raiding is commonly practiced. Recently though, I was encouraged to hear that some Toposa have gone to villages of neighboring tribes to make peace with their former enemies. It is our hope and prayer that all groups involved would adhere to these agreements.

Visit to the Toposaland

With the little time that I had left in Sudan, I decided to take a trip east of Torit to visit some of those who are involved with ministry among the Toposa in order to see what opportunities there may be for me to work among them in the future. My first stop was in Kapoeta about 150 km east of Torit. Without being able to notify him ahead of time, I went to visit James Lokuuda, a Toposa pastor who works with language translation and leads a growing church in Kapoeta. I also went out to visit one of the nearby villages where James had recently planted a church. After two nights in Kapoeta, I took a small bus to the town of Narus which is a couple hours drive east of Kapoeta. There I stayed with AIC pastor James Nyika and explored the area with some of the Kenyan and Sudanese missionaries. The trip went well and I made some good connections with the people. I am now seriously considering future ministry in that area. The environment of Kapoeta and Narus is a bit more harsh than Torit's. The land is much drier and the rivers flow with water only when there has been rain. While Torit is developing rapidly, there is little construction going on in these areas. I also got the impression that political clashes and acts of violence are more frequent as well. Despite reports that Christianity dominates these areas, most people in the area do not have knowledge of the Gospel. Biblical names are commonly given to the children, yet Christ is not known among them.
On my return journey from Narus to Torit, our bus stopped at a borehole. As Toposa children outside curiously came near the vehicle and looked in the window, they noticed me and just stared and smiled. I smiled back and greeted them in Toposa. One of the boys came up to the window and I asked him his name. He responded with "Marko" and then I told him my name. I felt awkward in not knowing what to say next, but he just stood there and continued to smile at me. As Marko was looking at me, the question arose in my mind "Without the Gospel where will these people be?" I was caught up in emotion and had to hold back tears. No more words were said and we soon departed, but I can never forget the curious and innocent look on that child's face and wonder what his future will hold for him.



When I reflect upon my entire time in Sudan, I feel that it was a success. My Juba Arabic language is now at a level where I can communicate fairly with the native speakers. I also developed good relationships with the locals and missionaries. I was able to challenge and encourage the Christians to draw closer to the Lord. And I also helped contribute to the growth of career-related skills in individuals through teaching of language and computer. I feel that the connections and relationships that I built with the people of Sudan will be beneficial for future ministry there. I believe that I will be returning to Sudan soon, but for the moment I feel that the Lord has called me to take some time to seek His face about my next steps. As of now, there are some pressing prayer needs for the nation of Sudan.

Prayer Points:

-This month, national elections are intended to take place for the entire Sudan. Pray that it would be a peaceful process and that the elections would be conducted with fairness.

-Next January, the Southern Sudanese will vote to either remain part of the Sudan or become a separate nation. Pray that the will of the people would be heard and carried out. Pray that both the North and South would be committed to finding a peaceful means of working out all the details of whatever decision is made.

-As for me, pray that as I seek the Lord, I would have discernment in hearing His voice for the next steps of my life and ministry. Above all things, I never want to forget the importance of living for Jesus. That means, not living for a successful ministry, or many of the other good things in this life, but rather valuing my relationship with Christ above all so that my life brings glory to Him.

Renewed Vision for the New Year

After having spent a wonderful Christmas with friends in Kijabe, Kenya and then having spent two weeks in Uganda, I am glad to be back in hot, dry, and dusty Torit, Sudan. I had a good time meeting AIM other missionaries at the Central Region Conference in Jinja and one of the highlights of my adventure was rafting on class five rapids near the source of the Nile in Uganda.
As of now, I have spent eight months in Africa and less than four months remain for me. Initially upon my return to Sudan, I intended to start teaching English classes at Torit Day Secondary school where I previously taught. Though both the headmaster and deputy master expressed their support of the idea, I had a difficult time getting things moving at the school. Due to the short amount of time that I had left here in Sudan, I decided to approach AIC about the idea. They immediately expressed their support and we got started soon after. I am now teaching two adult English classes, one for beginners and one at the intermediate level on the AIC church compound. Russ, who is an AIM missionary, has been great in helping me get things started and encouraging me in doing the class. I have found some challenges in the attendance not being consistent, but things appear to be improving as there are a few individuals coming regularly. Along with leading the English classes, I am also continuing to work with individuals on computer skills here at our compound.
Taking some time out of Sudan has also given me a renewed vision to investing in and working with the church body as well as being intentional in sharing Jesus to those with whom I interact. I began asking the Lord to lead me into and show me opportunities where I could speak His truth to the people that I interact with on a daily basis. About a week later, two young men that I see nearly everyday on separate occasions began asking me questions about sin and salvation. Both times I was able to share about what the Word of God says and encourage them to put their trust fully in Christ’s work on the cross. Though I have not yet sensed any major changes in the lives of these individuals, I am praying that the Lord would continue working on their hearts.
I am also thrilled that two young Sudanese men, Abema and Odiya have joined Barnabas and I in our weekly Bible study. It has been our desire to include in our Bible study Sudanese who love the Lord and want to grow in Christ. Both of these young men have a love the Lord and a desire to see their peers come to know Christ. I am also teaching Odiya computer skills and he has been coming to the intermediate English class regularly. I am looking start working with Abema as well.
One of the greatest challenges that I am now facing in Sudan is the high daytime and nighttime temperatures. The heat takes a great deal of energy out of a person here. I find that I often need a nap during the hottest time of the day. I am still spending most of my nights sleeping in a mud hut and the temperature inside often remains in the upper 80’s to lower 90’s into midnight. Often the only way for me to cope through the night is to lay a wet sheet over myself to keep cool. To make things more difficult, nights are seldom quiet here. Sometimes, there are overnight prayers and singing with blaring speakers from a nearby church, or other times one may hear drumming all night at a neighboring compound. In Lotuka culture, drumming is said to be a way of expressing grief and when an individual passes away, people from the community will come to the compound to drum, dance, and kick up dust with their feet from night until morning. I have found earplugs to be necessary for me to sleep some nights.
Despite the fact that sleeping in a mud hut without electricity is not easy during this season, I am still finding my nights at Taban’s place worthwhile as I have also developed a good friendship with Lodule, an 18 year old Sudanese who came from Juba almost a year ago to run the shop on the compound. I spend most of my evenings with him at the shop. Because he has no English, we converse in Arabic and I find after each month that passes that I am able to communicate a little bit better with him.


Please pray for:
-my time with Lodule. Pray that he would be drawn closer to Christ through our conversations.
-the English classes. Pray that the Lord would direct me in leading the classes as well as for the students who are coming.
-our Bible study and that we would continue to grow in Christ through our time together.
-restful nights and energy for us all to keep going strong during this season.
-our safety and protection.

My Experiences as a Teacher

Six weeks after I jumped into the middle of the school’s final term at Torit Day Secondary School, we have now finished lectures, given the final exams, and completed grading them. Although I faced a number of frustrations, I feel that the experience I gained from teaching there was invaluable. The Lord has again reminded me through this experience that He is faithful to use us as we choose to trust and obey Him. I honestly felt that teaching a class of 50-60 students without any formal teaching experience was beyond my capabilities, but the Lord brought me through. It was even a relief to know that most of the students were very happy with the class and my method of teaching.
Despite the success of the experience, I was saddened to find out that some of the students are seriously struggling in class due to their inability to understand, read, or write English well. I found it a bit humorous in some cases while I was grading the exams. According to one student, a disciple is a “flower” of Jesus. Another student listed the three parts of the Trinity when I asked for three reasons why people were angry with Jesus during His ministry. Due to the many who are struggling to understand English, I feel that the Lord may be leading me to start a class at the school which would be for students who wish to improve their English over their four month break from school. Teaching a class in which students voluntarily come is much more appealing than attempting to lead a class where some of the students who do not want to be there are continually disruptive.
The other parts of the ministry that the Lord has given me are going reasonably well, though I have had little time to work with my English or computer students. Things have seemed to wind down a bit, and I have decided not to pursue working with any other individuals until next year since I will be leaving Sudan for three weeks on December 22nd. I will be spending time in both Kenya and Uganda before I return to Sudan in January.
The homestay with Taban is going fairly well, though I had found the language learning a bit more difficult when I started teaching. Every evening, I found my mind shutting down and no longer wanting to converse in Arabic. Taban has decided to start digging the latrine on his compound that I plan to help him with and I was encouraged to see that some of his neighbors have also come and helped with the work. When I see neighbors or individuals working together for a common purpose without demanding anything in return, even with something as seemingly small as digging a latrine, I am reminded that there is hope in this place despite all the problems.
Upon my return in January, I am also looking to teach computer skills to Taban and William, another young man from church. Both are active members at Africa Inland Church and both have a desire to acquire more job-related skills. Also, Matai who I will be sponsoring to attend secondary school in Kenya is planning to head out soon and I am in the process of contacting the school and making arrangements for him.
I am really looking forward to seeing how the Lord will direct this second half of my term in Torit, but I can tell that it is time for a break. I am glad that I will be spending Christmas with my friends in Kijabe, Kenya.

How you can pray:
-For safety in our travels. Nearly all Central Region AIM missionaries will be going to an AIM conference in Uganda from the 6th to the 10th of January.
-For Matai as he is getting his passport and arranging for transport to Kenya. Pray also that everything would go well as we arrange for him to attend school there.
-That I would follow the leading of the Lord regarding teaching an English class for the secondary students over their year-end break.
-For continued peace in this land.
-For our continued health and protection.